cocaine skin

currently obsessed with kevin drew's new album. but my favorite song is not on it. cocaine skin is one of the non-album recordings and it just makes me feel good. found it on his myspace page and listen to it all the time. maybe too folky for some, but i loves it.

anyway- today has been interesting. both of my classes were cancelled, so i worked until 1 and then came home and took a nap. still having strange feelings about life. had a dream last night i got a phone call from e&y nyc saying they wanted me to start in february. too bad it was in my dreams. i suppose i'll continue dreaming until i find out for sure.

tomorrow morning i'll drive to dallas for my office visit with protiviti. hopefully that will go well. don't know if i want to be a consultant, but maybe for a while it would be good. at least a time for me to transition into being a grownup. i'm not ready for that. but i am very ready for new things- so i think it'll be good for a time. it's funny, this morning i was sitting at work thinking about being at a job where i actually felt like i had worth (today at the women's resource center my main task was dusting the bookshelves) and i got really excited. so, maybe when i'm in a place where i have tasks and i feel like i'm working towards an achievable goal i'll finally be happy. i hope so at least.

i think i'm done blogging for now. feeling strangely somber. maybe because it's halloween.

goods!

this video is one that makes me laugh EVERY time i watch it.

it's set to goods (all in your head) by mates of state. great song. and from what i understand, this video was made for a contest to direct the actual video for the band. i'm pretty sure this one won. all the more reason to love kori and jason.

anyway- check it out. and you can find the actual video that this guy directed here.

checked out.

lately, i find myself places surrounded by friends. having fun. enjoying myself.

then all of a sudden, i'm ready to go. i wonder why i even went in the first place. sure, i've enjoyed myself, but all of sudden i feel like i've wasted time.

i'm ready to go. and i'm not being negative. i'm just ready to go.

sdkl;fjdlfkgjhslfkjdf.

things are looking up

so yesterday, on the way home from houston while listening to much inspiring music, i decided this:

i've been letting everything that has happened or is happening this semester make me extremely unhappy and anxious. and i shouldn't.

that's it. i'm not going to let trivial things that, in the grand scheme, are unimportant, make me upset. i'm done.

so, here's to my new attitude.
cheers.

all these ppl drinkin lovers spit

i love this song.
wish i could have seen it live.
wish i could live it?

times they are a changin- nothin ever stays the same

i. am. so. ready. for. change.

its just getting frustrating. and i hate not being happy. or unhappy. just nothing.
and its not because i dont love my friends. or i dont want to appreciate the last few weeks i have here.
i'm just ready to go.
sldkfjs;ldfjk.


so i drove to houston today just to get out of town. sucks here too. waste of gas/time.

lcd soundsystem :: someone great

So lately, I've been listening to Someone Great by LCD Soundsystem a lot. It seems to explain a lot of things I'm feeling, and it's awesome. I thought I'd post the lyrics so you'd know what I'm talking about... I wanted to embed the song so you could hear it, but I don't know how to do that. And I'm just wasting time before class. And I'm hungover. Yes.


I wish that we could talk about it,
But there, that's the problem.
With someone new I could have started,
Too late, for beginnings.
The little things that made me harassed,
Are gone, in a moment.
I miss the way we used to argue,
Locked, in your basement.

I wake up and the phone is ringing,
Surprised, as it's early.
And that should be the perfect warning,
That something's, a problem.
To tell the truth I saw it coming,
The way, you were breathing.
But nothing can prepare you for it,
The voice, on the other, end.

The worst is all the lovely weather,
I'm sad, it's not raining.
The coffee isn't even bitter,
Because, what's the difference?
There's all the work that needs to be done,
It's late, for revision.
There's all the time and all the planning,
Someone Great Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com
And songs, to be finished.

And it keeps coming,
And it keeps coming,
And it keeps coming,
Till the day it stops
(Repeat x3)
And it keeps coming,
(Repeat x7)
Till the day it stops.

I wish that we could talk about it,
But there, that's the problem.
With someone new I could have started,
Too late, for beginnings.
You're smaller than my wife imagined,
Surprised, you were human.
There shouldn't be this ring of silence,
But what, are the options?

When someone great is gone.
(Repeat x8)

We're safe, for the moment.
Saved,
For the moment.

my eyes are shooting stars

oh dear. i just got home from ng and hanging with my favorite pershing residents. i'm realizing more and more each day how much i'm going to miss this place. thus far, this semester has been almost surreal. now it seems that the first half never even happened. which is fine i guess. i just wish it wouldn't have been the beginning of my last semester here. ah well. such is life.

i'm really excited about the future. starting over. hopefully the job search will be over soon and i can start planning for the future. it'll be good for me, i just hope that i find something that i really want to do.

now to make the best of the end. i have 2 months. hang out with me or lose me forever. : (

first time for everything

i've decided to try my hand at blogging. really it's more for me than anyone else, but i suppose some people may enjoy reading my thoughts. we'll see.