smile!

a small human that is adorable. and speaking in french.

dear sarah palin

in response to this

[3+] AlmostAmanda said:

Dear Sarah, I know you love, love, love, to blame the evil liberal "mee-dee-uh" for any and everything that went wrong with your campaign, but it wasn't their fault. Here's what killed your chances of becoming VP:

- John McCain was proud to have voted with an incredibly unpopular president.

- John McCain couldn't run on the "family values" platform that helped Bush given his personal history which cost him some conservatives.

- John McCain seemed kind of irratic when he picked an unqualified, unvetted person to be his running mate.

- John McCain seemed kind of irratic when he "suspended his campaign" to run back to Washington and save the day during the economic meltdown, but didn't actually do anything.

- John McCain also admitted he didn't know jack about the economy earlier in his campaign. - In interviews, you rarely seemed to know what the hell you were talking about.
- During the debate, you refused to answer questions you didn't like.

- The RNC was holding you up to be some kind of a populist, yet they spent an insane amount of money styling you and your family.

- Winking and refusing to add "g's" to the end of words is cute every now and then, but after a while it makes you look like a ditzy flirt and not VP material.

- You kept throwing mud at Obama even though it wasn't working and polls were clear that people weren't interested in dirt, but issues.

- You kept insisting that the Obama campaign was trashing your daughter and harassed poor "Joe the plumber" when it was obvious that neither was true.

- You suggested that there were "pro-America parts of the country" and "real Americans" (meaning that there would also have to be anti-America parts of the country and fake Americans, i.e. people who didn't support your politics) which alienated independent voters.

- Neither you nor John McCain had any great ideas for how to make this country a better place, while Barack Obama did.

Now, dear Sarah, please explain to me how any bit of that was the fault of the media. They didn't tell John McCain how to vote or who to run with. They didn't demand that he go to Washington to play maverick or walk around like a loon during the town hall debate. They didn't keep books, newspapers, magazines, or the Internet away from you so that you would be horribly unprepared to answer important questions. They didn't choose your platform, the divisive tone of your campaign, or your language. They didn't force you to release information about your daughter's pregnancy (you could have released your medical records instead) or mention "Joe the plumber" 20+ times in a debate. They didn't force the RNC to buy you clothes that cost as much as my house, nor did they force you to accept them. They also did not force John McCain to choose you nor did they prevent John McCain from vetting you. And they didn't make you abuse your authority as governor or allow your "First Dude" to have way too much say in an office to which he was not elected.

That was you, Sarah.

That was John McCain.

That is why you lost.

the reminder

we all count.

p.s. have a shitty day

found in college station, texas

c'est le retour

tis true. this is the return.

went to happy hour tonight for THREE HOURS.
now i'm tipsayyyyyyyyyyy.

college station this weekend for old v. new?
i can't decide.

transfer to sf?
i can't decide.

i can decide on some things though.
i love my friends.
i'm excited for denver.
i'm ready for another traveling project.
i'm ready to go to sleepy.

goodnight y good luck.
and write me emailzzzz

ugh

i feel stagnant

movement

looks like i'm definitely moving back to dallas next friday


cantwait.


although-
i will miss the debauchery of the seattle group
made a lot of great friends
had a lot of really fun times


tear.

once i wanted to be the greatest

a wise man once said:
when life hands you lemons,
paint that shit gold

therefore:
this weekend will be gold





pure gold

i have a headache

sitting at work waiting on the jamba run to get back
all systems are down except wireless internet
so we are just sitting, waiting, boring

last night was so fun!
football on the beach
dinner at a nice chowder house
pool party with drinks

LA was also the most fun
santa monica beach is pretty
and the weather was amazing
i especially loved riding with the windows down the whole time

ruston this weekend!!!$@#$@!
i am excited for
1. blue light
2. sundown
3. friends
4. feefoy
5. mohawk
6. being there

also- i am really hungover

all my friends!

so here we go
like a sales force into the night


so excited for the weekend
and ready for something newwww

collegestationthisweekend

back to the old stomping ground

not that old really. but removed definitely.

cantwait!

drive by

"hey faggotttttttttttttttttttt"

epicly owned

i am so ready for LA!
see you in hell!

back in seattle

back in the saddle?

thank you baby jesus for the independence of this fearless nation
and dallas, see you on thursday

xanax

i love maria taylor.
seattle july 6!

backed out on the cause

i need to make a list again

of things im excited about

and other things too i guess

my brain is tired

LA to hang out with trent!

ruston for a partyyyyy

camping on the 4th

vegas girl trip in august

birthday!

jacob lives in austin now

college station and caffe capri in july

i have a busy summer. but it will be fun.  

and best thing ever!  

no more long (12-13 hr) days after this week

things i miss:

select friends

family

dogs

texas (never thought i would say that)

my apartment

things im not embarrassed about:

just downloaded that leona lewis song

who cares

sounds boring

well, sometimes you are too.

tired of this

and i'm not talking about work.

in other news-

getting sick i think.

great timing for the one weekend i'm staying in seattle.

of course

the sun didn't shine today.

i'm so over seattle.

the hiatus is over

and i'm sleepy in seattle. ha.

working in seattle for a while. not sure how long, maybe only until the end of june, probably longer. it's not bad, really. expensing everything, hanging out with fun people...

the 12 hour days are already starting to get old. and having to put life in dallas on hold for 5 days at a time is getting older. my apartment is a wreck, and all i want to do when i'm actually in town is hang out with friends.

and obviously i feel frazzled. i can't even write a coherent blog.
i blame it on living out of a suitcase.

and beyond the aforementioned frustrations,

I AM MISSING MATES OF STATE THIS WEEK.

this is, perhaps, the worst part of being in seattle thus far.
my favorite band, playing less than 5 miles from my apartment.
and i will STILL be at work when their show starts.

oh life.

and to top it off, they weren't lying when they said the weather in seattle is depressing.
cold. rain. all. day. every. day.

ok, the complaints are over.
i will get to enjoy the city in a couple of weekends.
and maybe the sun will shine tomorrow.



listening:
mates of state- get better
kevin drew- lucky ones
yeah yeah yeahs- modern romance

:(

just hung out with trent for the last time
while he lives in texas

see you in la!

kat is coming on sunday

and i CANNOT WAIT!!!!!$@#%#$%@#$

she needs to find a wedding dress.  weird but awesome.

so.

awesome.

also

hot chip- colours

so poetically bummed

i just want my friends here.

now.

the end of the weekend

suckssssss.

and for some reason i really love the song by
leona lewis: bleeding love.

and i'm not ashamed.

anyway- panic was awesome last night.
brother/sister time was fun as always.
glad my sibling is so fuckin rad.

time to get the bike fixed.
finally.

and- these layoffs are making me think.
really hard.
about doing something else.

more school maybe?
or maybe something crazy.
move somewhere.

i am just already getting restless.
no good.

what you gonna be when you grow up

concerts i am going to in the next two weeks:
1. govt mule
2. avett brothers
3. M.I.A.
4. widespread panic

and then in june:
1. ladytron
2. rogue wave & death cab

lucky girl.
and
finally some people in dallas to be frenzzzz with
!!!

tonight

the weather is crazy outside

i'm listening to m.ward inside

it's nice

especially the song post-war

and i'm satisfyingly tired

if that's even a word

running stop signs

still don't know where i'm going

but i know i'm only takin' my own self there

; )

things i am thankful for

1. friends
2. microwave pad thai
3. my paycheck
4. music
5. people that aren't assholes

about the intersection

still havent figured it out
and i thought i was strong willed

i saw you... looked like a swimmer

if you always get up late
you're never gonna be on time
and that's a shame
cause i like you

2 songs:
broken social scene- swimmers
bright eyes- take it easy (love nothing)

old but GOOD.

hmmmmmm

feel like im at an intersection
dont know which way to go

!#$@$!!$#$!

got paid 2 days early

all my materialistic dreams are coming true

2 glasses of wine + 1 hour bubble bath=

i obviously know what it feels like to want a drink after work


cheersssssss!

when life gives you lemons

paint that shit gold




4.22.08

new finds & old favorites

MGMT- time to pretend
metric- grow up and blow away
she and him- why do you let me stay here?
the blow- hey boy
death from above 1979- sexy results (MSTRKRFT remix)
goldfrapp- little bird
holy fuck- lovely allen
m. ward- poison cup
mates of state- an experiment
michael jackson- P.Y.T.
okkervil river- our life is not a movie or maybe
pixies- debaser
ryan adams- to be young
stars- sleep tonight (justice remix)
rogue wave- chicago X 12
wilco- i am trying to break your heart
devotchka- the winner is
M.I.A.- XR2
battles- atlas
broken social scene- swimmers
clem snide- jews for jesus blues
the decemberists- sons and daughters

i made this playlist today. and felt like sharing.

it has come and gone

my first day in the "real world"
it was pretty real too

driving to work this morning seems like AGES ago
and i remember thinking:
this is the first time i'm driving "to work"
i "work" in dallas
i am a "young professional"

strangely enough these things are not what i saw
when i used to think of my future
but- i think i like it
so far at least

sitting in orientation my mind wandered
i was daydreaming about this new life
wearing high heels everyday
and not minding?
feeling good about it?

this is not the becca that once existed

i started to think about all the things i thought i would do
all the non-profits i would volunteer for
the lives i would change
and there i was-
sitting in an office in corporate america
talking about profitability
and trade secrets
and things i never thought i would care about it

this question came to mind:
so am i abandoning my dreams?

i don't think so.
this thought process proves it i think
to me at least
i just have to have a little jumpstart
get on my feet

and when i figure out what i'm really supposed to be doing
i will do it
wholeheartedly
with no reservation

until then-
good morning corporate america
and good night casual becca

:)

hunter showed me these

and i love them.


new young pony club- the bomb


new young pony club- ice cream

eeeeeeeee!

the irony of it all

so i share a washer and dryer with two other people who live in the same stairwell as me. i've been waiting since tuesday for them to apparently wash every piece of fabric in their home. i've checked multiple times each day and every time there has been a different load of clothes in the washing machine. it made me feel like they were scheming "lets wash clothes all day to make the new girl hate us."

so today- i got downstairs to check and YES! there are no clothes in the washing machine. so i run upstairs and get my detergent and my sheets that i've been wanting to wash since TUESDAY so i can finally sleep in a normal bed again (its been since graduation thanks to the crib i slept in at pershing). so i try to start the washer with my sheets and detergent inside it and it starts to hum- like its about to fill up with water.
i'm relieved.

that was 45 minutes ago. the washer is still humming.
there is still no water in it.

WHAT THE FUCK.

adorable

here are some pics of the new place. its still as mess as you can tell. but for any of you that have ever seen anywhere i have lived, itll look relatively clean. also photobooth makes everything a mirror image of what it should look like. so reverse the images in your head. because i know everyone is capable of that.

this is from the dining room looking into the living room. the door you see leads to my adorable balcony. i don't have a couch yet, so hopefully in the near future there will be one right around where that white plastic storage thing is. ikea here i come as soon as i get that first check.


so i flipped it in iphoto but added it from photobooth and can't flip it. deal.
this is my extremely small but cute kitchen. the view is from the top of the refrigerator.

this is from the front door looking into my bedroom. i usually just come in the back door by the kitchen though because the parking lot is back there. come visit me and i'll show you. and you can even watch my baby tv set. its so old and cute.

i'm not going to post any of my bedroom bc its just a bed and a dresser in a not very squared room.

also- they turned on my cable and internet yesterday. this is the first time i've ever had digital cable. it is SO RAD!

i'm here

so i just moved in.

still unpacking.

pictures to come.

do you wonder where the self resides

is it in your heart or between your sides?



this is about renewal.

i was driving home from work today listening to andrew bird and the song dark matter came on. and it gave me that feeling- the one everyone gets when they're about to do something fresh and new- you feel like the world is yours and you can accomplish anything. you're going to a new place and you can recreate yourself. you can meet new people. do new things. now- when leaving ruston and coming to college station third eye blind's out of the vein did it for me. (yes i'm admitting it. and i still love that album.) but today was the first day i felt that about this move that's about to happen. and i wanted to share it. listen to the song- it's really great. well really just buy the album because it's awesome.

i'm moving. and while i don't think i'll change as much as i did in the last 4 years- i can't wait.

this IS about renewing myself.

and perhaps i'm romanticizing it a bit, but this is exactly as its happening. romantically.




i'll leave you with a quote from the fb of my favorite laura shinn:

"People, even more than things, have to be
restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed;
never throw out anyone."
Audrey Hepburn

i bid you all good day and similar feelings in the near future.

i'm never as tired as when i'm waking up

here are some pictures that changed the world

thanks willy for the link

odies haynes jr.

he buses tables at caffe capri
his name is pronounced otis
middle aged- probably 5'7"
round belly- always smiling without all his teeth
got set up and busted by the cops for dealing
to this day believes it was racial profiling
but somehow remains the sweetest man ever
he used to be a cowboy too- that's his favorite part of life
and last but not least-
he is the genius who coined the phrase:

sheeeeeeeeeeittttt... his momma was a bitch too

i'm going to miss mr. odies. lots i think.

one more thing. jaci (far left):















i'm glad we were friends before she got famous.

things i am excited about

growing flowers on my balcony
new art for my new apartment
gilbert's birthday tonight!
clean jeans to wear tonight
my mail (cd & note) from states rights records
the beauty that is today

please tell me things that you are excited about in the comments.
i like to know. so i can be excited too.

of course texas is choosing the ugliest of the options

omgzzzzzz

my new home!





this is the street view on google for my new place in dallas!
my apartment will be the one upstairs to the left of the front door.
it is perfect.
the building was built in 1927 and has since been turned into 12 apartments.
its a one bedroom with hardwood floors, a darling little balcony, and 50s style tile in the kitchen and bathroom. i think i really lucked out. and the rent is under budget! i'm so excited!

the lease starts feb. 15 but i don't think i'll actually move for good until the first of the month. i have some more parties in my system to get out- and my dad took off the first week of march to be a doll and help me move. plus- i need to keep working at caffe capri.

ah well. just wanted to give a little update.

i'm happy. link happy.

gems

i've been meaning to share these





you should love them like i do

no mushrooms

look
if you don't want mushrooms
in your cajun tortellini
then get off your fucking phone
and tell me
don't just look disappointed
when i bring it to you
and there are mushrooms
in your cajun tortellini

because you were too busy
talking on your fucking phone
to tell me



ok i feel better.

that's it

i forgot to blog for choice today. perfect.
and now i don't really feel like thinking about it.
seems i've had conversations about it all day.
and not with people who agree.
i don't mind having those conversations at all.
but they wear on me. and now i don't want to think.

i think i'm becoming an insomniac.

kevin drew posted a new song on his myspace.
love 5
and it sounds like love should i think.
very airy. almost like a dream.
something happy that makes you cry.
all at the same time.
you could say i'm obsessed.
more like understanding.
i'm emo at heart. or a romantic.
eh.

it has been very cold lately.
i'm learning to knit with this loom thing from walmart.
not actually knitting i guess.
but its a lot faster and the end result just as good.
and as warm.
because it has been very cold lately.

i'm going to try to read some and go to sleep.
wish me luck!
and goodnight.

mlk dayyy

was reading feministing today and came across a hip hop blog
with an especially cool post for mlk day
check it

last night i went to the poetry slam at revolution
it was really awesome- and we proceeded to have the chillest drunk night ever
it was so fun
except for the conversation at the end where i bitched about tipping below 20%
oops

my favorite conversation was way awesome though:
it was decided, under our breath, that coldplay really sucks
especially the newest album (can't remember title)
the people we were sitting with would not stop saying how perfect it is
uhhhhhhh
and then- something about mainstream rap came up
they think is sucks
we decided its awesome- because there's something creative about writing rhymes that are so absurd
they were obviously morons if they don't think that 'real big' is awesome

it was a pretty great, really drunk weekend

tomorrow is the 35th anniversary of roe v wade
i'm joining the fb group
and i'm signing up to blog about it
you can too:

what a week full of freedom!
yes!
time for some aesop rock after all the talk of hiphop
bye!

post grad scholarly endeavors

interesting interview

the ladies at feministing.com are funny. and smart. and i want to be them.

maybe i will join the crew someday? i can dream.

the hiatus is overrrrr

im drunk. its tuesday night. good night to blog i think.

i didnt work today- ran some errands. ate some dinner.
the usual.

now im listening to kevin drew just like old times.
except i dont have to wake up for class.
just have to be at work by 530.
eh.

there are so many things on my mind right now.
i want to type them.
but im not.
its too much.
im just ready for some fresh things.
new and fresh.
not necessarily new. but definitely fresh.

we will see what happens.


i love kevin drew. hes a sexy.