it has come and gone

my first day in the "real world"
it was pretty real too

driving to work this morning seems like AGES ago
and i remember thinking:
this is the first time i'm driving "to work"
i "work" in dallas
i am a "young professional"

strangely enough these things are not what i saw
when i used to think of my future
but- i think i like it
so far at least

sitting in orientation my mind wandered
i was daydreaming about this new life
wearing high heels everyday
and not minding?
feeling good about it?

this is not the becca that once existed

i started to think about all the things i thought i would do
all the non-profits i would volunteer for
the lives i would change
and there i was-
sitting in an office in corporate america
talking about profitability
and trade secrets
and things i never thought i would care about it

this question came to mind:
so am i abandoning my dreams?

i don't think so.
this thought process proves it i think
to me at least
i just have to have a little jumpstart
get on my feet

and when i figure out what i'm really supposed to be doing
i will do it
wholeheartedly
with no reservation

until then-
good morning corporate america
and good night casual becca

:)